Lepers

Written on 11/28/08...

Last night I thought of a great way to describe the state I've been in for the last few months. I've been a leper. It's not like I wanted to rebel or be mad at God and become depressed. I was unable to feel. But God touched me and healed me. Now, just like a leper I've entered into an incredible new life, but it's also a life with pain. I wonder if each leper knew what they were getting into when they asked to be healed, and if they would have wanted to be healed if they had known. I wonder if any of them wanted to go back to being a leper and if God would have let them. For me, I've decided the pain I'm now able to feel is nothing compared to the pain of having no pain. The pain of feeling alone because I couldn't feel anyone or anything touch me.