God is Too Good

I was thinking about the struggle between wanting God to do and wanting God to be. It seems like the hardest command in the Bible is "be still and know that I am God." Yet God has shown me over the past few months that those moments when I let Him sow me a glimpse of who He is - those moments when I allow myself to be still - are the most incredible moments of my life. So why is this command such a struggle? You'd think I'd go to the other extreme, sitting in my room refusing to move for days on end!
I think God scares me. It's not that I'm scared to go into His presence because I feel unworthy or anything like that. That would be a common problem easy to identify and deal with. No, I think I'm scared that God is simply too good to be true. I've been raised in a world where good things don't last - the other shoe always drops. If I'm having a mountaintop experience with God one day, my mind assures me that a valley's coming tomorrow.
In this world, good things don't last. It's a world full of shifting sand. But God isn't of this world, and neither am I. He will be with me in the valley the same way He is on the mountaintop. He will be with me when a child dies the same way He is with me when a child's life is saved. He never changes. He's always with me. He always loves me. God isn't too good to be true, He's true and He's good.
Now, maybe if I repeat this to myself one hundred times a day for the next lifetime, I'll start to believe it. I'll start to be able to fathom the incredible goodness of my Savior!