Sick of Second Chances

I'm sick of second chances.
I'm tired of the fight.
I want to conquer,
Fail no longer,
One day get it right.

I'm sick of your forgiveness.
Why can't I stop this sin?
I hate confession,
Want to rest in,
Knowing I can win.

I'm sick of new beginnings.
They mean I've made a mess
Of my assignment.
Why the constant
Failure to progress?

I'm sick of needing mercy.
I'd rather work alone,
And prove that I could,
Do some great good
Working on my own.